7 Reasons I Was Terrified To Share My Journey with Alcohol: Especially “I am Drinking Again”

To get to the point quickly, I am fearful of the negative assumptions people are going to make about my decision. Not only that, I do not want to be perceived as a failure.

For a little bit of context, I stopped drinking in October of 2019 and in January of 2021 I made the well thought out decision to try moderation. The journey is still fresh and thus far going without issue, but I am still worried about judgement from others.

For anyone wondering why I care about other’s opinions, it is because we are biologically wired with the desire to be supported and accepted. It’s a method of survival, so even the smallest comments against my perspective give me a moment of pause.

I decided to rip off the band-aid by writing a blog post and it got far more attention than anticipated (Read Here if Interested: I Started Drinking Again After 2 Years of Sobriety).

Initially it was exciting that I may not be alone in my unique perspective and that people were finally reading my writing… That was until I remembered that people can comment… and they have been. Most re-affirming and other ones that bring tiny moments of self-doubt.